Covering My Head

About a month ago I began covering my head. I’ve kept pretty quiet about it because I’m not a fan of drawing attention to myself, but I’ve had a few people ask me about it, so I figured I’d write a bit about my experience.

I have pondered the idea of head covering for a few years and was opposed to it until recently. Back in September, I went to a women’s retreat and got some major breakthrough in my relationship with the Lord, specifically in the area of hearing his voice. I’ve often struggled with doubt in that area – doubt that He would speak to me, doubt that I would recognize it.

After I got home, I couldn’t shake the head covering thing. God kept bringing people into my life who covered and I started thinking about it more and studying it more.

There are many reasons why women cover, and many different social backgrounds. In Judaism, it is a mitzvah of modesty, coming from Numbers 5:18 where the woman’s head covering is removed as part of the test for unfaithfulness, and further taught in the Talmud. In Christianity, it comes from the passage in 1 Corinthians 11 about praying with your head covered and is more about your relationship to God than your husband. There are also many other religious and non-religious reasons.

In my studies, I couldn’t come to a point where I believed either approach was a mandate for me – I’m not Jewish, and I’ve read enough in-depth study on the Corinthians passage to believe that God doesn’t mandate a cover in order to pray.

So I continued talking with the Lord about it, wanting a black and white answer, because that’s how I roll. 😉 And what I got from Him was that He wants me to cover my head for a season, and that I’ll understand why when I need to.

I’ve been covering daily for a month now and it has been such a blessing to me. First, I have peace knowing that I’m waking in obedience to God’s word for me. It helps me keep my focus on the Lord all day. Having something on my head is a constant reminder that He is with me, that He sees me, and that I need to submit to Him. It helps me stay accountable for my choices. Plus, I feel beautiful and special, and in that way it reminds me that I am a daughter of the King, and His hands in this world. 🙂

I think we all have a tendency to see choices others make and view them as a judgement on us. “You eat this way? That must mean you judge the way I eat! You parent this way? That must mean you judge the way I parent!” I don’t want people to feel uncomfortable with my choice because they think that I must be judging them. I don’t cover because I think that wrapping itself is what everyone should do – I do it because the Lord told me to do it. 

I don’t know how long this season will last, but it has been such a blessing to me – so much more than I expected!

Shalom…

– Judy

6 Replies to “Covering My Head”

  1. Beautiful. I love what you mentioned about it being right for you but not right for everyone and not a judgment against others who don’t wrap.

  2. I had a similar call to wear a full covering in 2003. The season lasted 3.5 years. It enriched every aspect of my spiritual walk. The lessons were too many to list here, but the first one was that I could no longer hide away my faith. My faith was not a private matter with my head covered, and sifting through other people’s misconceptions and sometimes even anger at my decision was both humbling and strengthening to my soul. For a time I felt invisible, others could not see past it. But for me it was an expression of my heart. Secondary to that was the obliteration of vanity. I had not realized how much I loved my hair until I was covering it. Many blessings on your journey. Thank you for sharing!

  3. Beautifuly written. Thanks for sharing. I love that you explain the non-judgemental part of making your choice. When anything is controversial it does tend to bring out people’s defenses.

  4. Love the red, blue, green, and tan wrap. Is it also Wrapunzel? If so, are you comfortable sharing which one? I am going through a similar experience. I appreciate you writing about it and putting words to this particular topic.

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